kattybeans
I should have been the pink power ranger...
lonelyit's been a while since i've blogged
i was too busy being happy and stuff.
but now, well, more like a month ago, spencer left me.
yep. so i'm single... again.
but i'm doing something different. i'm staying this way, at least for a while.
usually i'm all lonely and rebound. but this time, i'm gonna have some time just for me. i need and deserve it.
so ya, the only thing that really sucks about this whole ' single ' thing,
is the fact that he broke up with me because he didnt love me. so that hurts.
a lot.
but i'm moving on. i figure he dosnt deserve my time being sad about him. whatever.
if he dosnt love and adore me than thats his own stupid mistake. whatever.
yep. i feel strangely confident.
No slagathore??s - ylper
I Cannot Belive it has been a year...
and I have only blogged a little bit.
Probably less than half the amount I did a couple summers ago.
And I'm starting to notice how I am changing.
OOOH YAY! EXAMPLE TIME!!!!!!
( I love examples!)
okay.... whew.. here we go...
FOR EXAMPLE:
Spencer( a couple of days ago) was a bit irritated because I was complaining about how I
never can beat my friends in ANYTHING (bla bla bla.. its what i do... nag nag nag...)
and he was ( as stated earlier ) irritated.
My reaction:
A couple of months ago would have been:
cry
cry
freak out
sorry
sorry
I'm so sorry
I didnt mean it
no I really didn't
cry cry
OMG are you mad?
are you goona leave me?!
cry
A couple of Days ago:
Listen to his advice
hey, are you mad?
okay
I'm sorry
You're right
okay
still irritated? jk
*Grab his hand a sqeeze*
EXAMPLE TERRMINATED
i miss the example...
anyhoo,
point is
I'm more emotionally stable!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
( Subject chang
and on new years I am going to have a fun fun fun night.
Probably less than half the amount I did a couple summers ago.
And I'm starting to notice how I am changing.
OOOH YAY! EXAMPLE TIME!!!!!!
( I love examples!)
okay.... whew.. here we go...
FOR EXAMPLE:
Spencer( a couple of days ago) was a bit irritated because I was complaining about how I
never can beat my friends in ANYTHING (bla bla bla.. its what i do... nag nag nag...)
and he was ( as stated earlier ) irritated.
My reaction:
A couple of months ago would have been:
cry
cry
freak out
sorry
sorry
I'm so sorry
I didnt mean it
no I really didn't
cry cry
OMG are you mad?
are you goona leave me?!
cry
A couple of Days ago:
Listen to his advice
hey, are you mad?
okay
I'm sorry
You're right
okay
still irritated? jk
*Grab his hand a sqeeze*
EXAMPLE TERRMINATED
i miss the example...
anyhoo,
point is
I'm more emotionally stable!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
( Subject chang
and on new years I am going to have a fun fun fun night.
watcha gonna do when they come for you?
ummm.
so, to sum it all up,
me and spencer got busted for making out in the high school parking lot.
I know...
shut up.
we're retarded.
I Hate to feel this way...
Lately I've been a bitch
i think i'm PMS-ing
cuz everything either really pisses me off or makes me want to cry.
But its weird, cuz I'm never like this.
So, i don't know...
Besides that,
I am always feeling dirty lately.
not like, sleazy or really greasy,
but like i need to take a shower or i feel funny.
GAH!!!!!!
AND!
Maddie is having an identity crisis(yes, i did just refer to myself in the third person)
you see,
Maddie likes to wear thigh-high socks,
polka-dot boots,
and uber cool big rings.
Now, lets just say that, Spencer dosnt hang out with people that dress like i do.
And so,
i'm always afraid of embarrassing him, even though he says my colorful wardrobe is one of the things that made him love me.
i don't think his friends see it the same.
Actually, this is mainly a problem because Spencer isn't really for PDA.
And I don't mean i want him to make out with me in the halls or anything,
but a lot of people don't even know we're dating.
it's pretty aggrtavating. ITS BEEN 5 MONTHS
and people are still asking,"hey, did i see you and Spencer kissing? are you going out?"
Its really annoying.
And so, to bring this all together, i'm afraid of looking weird and awkward around him/ his friends becasue it contributes to the fact that people look at us and think " just friends". i feel weird in public with him, and so then I don't look girlfriend-y.
What a mess!
WAIT! i know why i'm so bitchy! I'm stressing out.
wow. that took a while to figure out.
go me.
i think i'm PMS-ing
cuz everything either really pisses me off or makes me want to cry.
But its weird, cuz I'm never like this.
So, i don't know...
Besides that,
I am always feeling dirty lately.
not like, sleazy or really greasy,
but like i need to take a shower or i feel funny.
GAH!!!!!!
AND!
Maddie is having an identity crisis(yes, i did just refer to myself in the third person)
you see,
Maddie likes to wear thigh-high socks,
polka-dot boots,
and uber cool big rings.
Now, lets just say that, Spencer dosnt hang out with people that dress like i do.
And so,
i'm always afraid of embarrassing him, even though he says my colorful wardrobe is one of the things that made him love me.
i don't think his friends see it the same.
Actually, this is mainly a problem because Spencer isn't really for PDA.
And I don't mean i want him to make out with me in the halls or anything,
but a lot of people don't even know we're dating.
it's pretty aggrtavating. ITS BEEN 5 MONTHS
and people are still asking,"hey, did i see you and Spencer kissing? are you going out?"
Its really annoying.
And so, to bring this all together, i'm afraid of looking weird and awkward around him/ his friends becasue it contributes to the fact that people look at us and think " just friends". i feel weird in public with him, and so then I don't look girlfriend-y.
What a mess!
WAIT! i know why i'm so bitchy! I'm stressing out.
wow. that took a while to figure out.
go me.
No slagathore??s - ylper
you remembered...
today marks the day
that 5 months ago
Spencer told me we were going out
"hey, uh, ya... we're goin out now.."
i thought it was cute...
Anyhoo, despite the happiness of the day,
i was in a really bad mood,
so being the sweet heart he is,
brought me to mcDonalds,
and got me chicken nuggets.
Now, let me tell you, for almost a year, i've eaten my nuggets with honey mustard sauce,
but last time we went to mcDonalds, i told him to remind me that i wanted BBQ from then on.
that was like, 2 weeks ago,
Without saying, he ordered my BBQ sauce today.
it was ADORABLE
and then he made me feel even better by switching on the Sweet life of zach and cody(which he hates) and then to ANTM(which he ALSO hates)
i am amazed with how cute he is.
so for any guys reading this:
that 5 months ago
Spencer told me we were going out
"hey, uh, ya... we're goin out now.."
i thought it was cute...
Anyhoo, despite the happiness of the day,
i was in a really bad mood,
so being the sweet heart he is,
brought me to mcDonalds,
and got me chicken nuggets.
Now, let me tell you, for almost a year, i've eaten my nuggets with honey mustard sauce,
but last time we went to mcDonalds, i told him to remind me that i wanted BBQ from then on.
that was like, 2 weeks ago,
Without saying, he ordered my BBQ sauce today.
it was ADORABLE
and then he made me feel even better by switching on the Sweet life of zach and cody(which he hates) and then to ANTM(which he ALSO hates)
i am amazed with how cute he is.
so for any guys reading this:
when trying to impress the ladies, remember what sauce they want with their nuggets!!!
No slagathore??s - ylper
Myspace is actually good or something...
So to everyone that says myspace is useless...
screw you.
The other day, i was on myspace, and i decided to search for some people.
The thought of my old best friend becca came to mind. so i typed in here name, and up came a list of becca's.
One look at her picture put me in awe.
I hadnt had any form of communication with her since 5th grade.
And 5 years later, i found her. I am truely amazed.
So i suppose you can say myspace is good for communication,
its just when it becomes your ONLY source of communication, and it takes over your life...
thats crazy.
screw you.
The other day, i was on myspace, and i decided to search for some people.
The thought of my old best friend becca came to mind. so i typed in here name, and up came a list of becca's.
One look at her picture put me in awe.
I hadnt had any form of communication with her since 5th grade.
And 5 years later, i found her. I am truely amazed.
So i suppose you can say myspace is good for communication,
its just when it becomes your ONLY source of communication, and it takes over your life...
thats crazy.
So yes. Woot for myspace!
No slagathore??s - ylper
Who's your Tiger?
So I've finally jumped on the baseball train.
I always thought it was stupid, untill i went to a tigers game with my boyfriend.
Now I Have:
a Detroit tigers hat
A Gary Sheffield shirt
and i picked my tiger:Sheffield
.
So yes. This is a change in my life, that I'm okay with.
The thing is, baseball actually can be really fun to watch,
and its fun saying that pudge looks like a child molester to me....
And Magglio ordonez is NOT good looking.
his face is really fat.....
So go me! right?
I always thought it was stupid, untill i went to a tigers game with my boyfriend.
Now I Have:
a Detroit tigers hat
A Gary Sheffield shirt
and i picked my tiger:Sheffield
.
So yes. This is a change in my life, that I'm okay with.
The thing is, baseball actually can be really fun to watch,
and its fun saying that pudge looks like a child molester to me....
And Magglio ordonez is NOT good looking.
his face is really fat.....
So go me! right?
No slagathore??s - ylper
I have the Feeling...
That I'm just a bit too clingy.
Not really clingy. just, well, enough to be noticable.
Spencer said he was afraid we would get bored of each other.
Seeing each other so much...
I think thats impossible.
Not really clingy. just, well, enough to be noticable.
Spencer said he was afraid we would get bored of each other.
Seeing each other so much...
I think thats impossible.
But I have been trying.
to do things with other people.
But the way i look at it,
after a couple months i'll probably settle down a bit.
Once that giddy, AH I HAVE A BOYFRIEND, thing is over.
And then, I can feel just as satisfied with seeing him once a week.
but right now,
i want to feel secure,
with umm... a lot of seeing each other time.
I hope i dont sound stupid...
But the way i look at it,
after a couple months i'll probably settle down a bit.
Once that giddy, AH I HAVE A BOYFRIEND, thing is over.
And then, I can feel just as satisfied with seeing him once a week.
but right now,
i want to feel secure,
with umm... a lot of seeing each other time.
I hope i dont sound stupid...
No slagathore??s - ylper
So... LTA today. AND SIMPSONS!!!!!!!...
So who isnt Excited about the Simpson's Movie?
If your not excited, dont tell me,
because i dont care.
Anywho....
Me and Spence are going to Los Tres Amigos,
(he hasnt taken me out to dinner in over a month. But its okay)
and then we shall see the Simpson's Movie!
HOOOOOORRRRRAAAAAAAAYYYYYY
hmmmm...
and.
yea.
thats about it.
If your not excited, dont tell me,
because i dont care.
Anywho....
Me and Spence are going to Los Tres Amigos,
(he hasnt taken me out to dinner in over a month. But its okay)
and then we shall see the Simpson's Movie!
HOOOOOORRRRRAAAAAAAAYYYYYY
hmmmm...
and.
yea.
thats about it.
I'm quite bland these days....
No slagathore??s - ylper
It was Great...
so.so.great.
After a long wait... I finally got the book yesterday.
and then. today.... I finished. About a half an hour ago.
Mind you, I got the book at around 8:00 P.M.
so. wooooo me.
It was wonderful.
Pure Bliss.
Sad that the series is over.
But deffinetly glad that i finally know how it all ends.
After a long wait... I finally got the book yesterday.
and then. today.... I finished. About a half an hour ago.
Mind you, I got the book at around 8:00 P.M.
so. wooooo me.
It was wonderful.
Pure Bliss.
Sad that the series is over.
But deffinetly glad that i finally know how it all ends.
Plus, I enjoyed the epilogue.
So. Harry Potter has once again made my life worth living.
Its sad, I know.
But i love it.
♥
So. Harry Potter has once again made my life worth living.
Its sad, I know.
But i love it.
♥
hmmmmmm
sooooooooo.
saw the big HP yesterday.
that was prett-ty cool.
Um. Yes. actually, i shall see it again today.
becasue my boyfriend is as cool as me and wants to see it now.
YOU ARE JEALOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dont deny.
I'm really bored.
i wish i had something meaningfull to talk about. ya know?
get a bunch of people talking.
but i dont.
So uh.... go read smurfy's blog.
he is much cooler than i.
just kidding!
well, maybe.
just a little...
anyone want some orange juice?
saw the big HP yesterday.
that was prett-ty cool.
Um. Yes. actually, i shall see it again today.
becasue my boyfriend is as cool as me and wants to see it now.
YOU ARE JEALOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dont deny.
I'm really bored.
i wish i had something meaningfull to talk about. ya know?
get a bunch of people talking.
but i dont.
So uh.... go read smurfy's blog.
he is much cooler than i.
just kidding!
well, maybe.
just a little...
anyone want some orange juice?
No slagathore??s - ylper
movie movie movie
I've been waiting
and waiting
and waiting
for my friend to FINALLY be available to see HP5.
tomorrow. what a glorious day!!!!! uhhhh.... yea
then what I do with my life.... i dont know.
wait for the book of course!!!
(which, might i add, I am much more excited about than the movie.)
and to stray away from the very common subject of blogs...
I got my hair cut.
like, short.
I'll take pictures!!!
mmmmm... cookies.....
wait...
what?
oh.
so my hair is short. and it actually looks pretty good.
well,
the only reason its this short is because i wanted to be able to put it in a cue little pony tail.
and by the time school starts, it shall be longer, and cuter!
OH GLORIOUS DAY!
i think i'm gonna make cookies....
and waiting
and waiting
for my friend to FINALLY be available to see HP5.
tomorrow. what a glorious day!!!!! uhhhh.... yea
then what I do with my life.... i dont know.
wait for the book of course!!!
(which, might i add, I am much more excited about than the movie.)
and to stray away from the very common subject of blogs...
I got my hair cut.
like, short.
I'll take pictures!!!
mmmmm... cookies.....
wait...
what?
oh.
so my hair is short. and it actually looks pretty good.
well,
the only reason its this short is because i wanted to be able to put it in a cue little pony tail.
and by the time school starts, it shall be longer, and cuter!
OH GLORIOUS DAY!
i think i'm gonna make cookies....
Despite
of what he says...
I'm going to Marry that boy.
And I'm Going to love him forever
I don't care that the future scares me.
The thought of being in Love like this scares me.
But then he hugs me
And I remember that he's worth the risk.
♥
of what he says...
I'm going to Marry that boy.
And I'm Going to love him forever
I don't care that the future scares me.
The thought of being in Love like this scares me.
But then he hugs me
And I remember that he's worth the risk.
♥
No slagathore??s - ylper
seriously??
no way.
Pout
i.dont.BELIEVE IT!
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